And for tired eyes every light is too bright, and for tired lips every breath is too heavy, and for tired ears every word is too much.

Lassitude.
A condition of the body, or mind, when its voluntary functions are performed with difficulty, and only by a strong exertion of the will; languor; debility; weariness.






Only by a strong exertion of the will. It means forcing yourself to muster energy you don't have to perform an action. That means me.

I'm so grateful we celebrate EVERYTHING back home. Reminds me of the time the govt. declared 09/09/1999 as a public holiday. One additional thing I have come to miss about Malaysia.
Don't think I've ever survived this long without a holiday. I'm really tired. I'd be grateful if I had one long weekend. There is just simply not enough time to do all that I wish to do! Just today, I left work at 7.30pm. I barely sat for a total of 2 hours the whole day. It's less tiring working 10 hours part time in a departmental store selling perfume! When I got home, I ate dinner and went to clean the toilet!! Was going to do some laundry but decided against it. Think my muscles will freeze if I tried to lift the laundry basket upstairs.
Despite the exhaustion, I refuse to sleep. It's now past my usual bedtime and I don't want to sleep. not yet. I deserve a few hours of relaxation, a few hours of calm, a few hours of entertainment (and bad news, our internet quota is gonna finish. There goes my entertainment.)!!

I don't want to go in to work tomorrow. Really really don't. Somehow I wish the weather would get to me. But then again, I'll just be fighting a bigger battle with time if I lost it by falling ill.

It's hard growing up. So hard.
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With regards to the song Mad World by Gary Jules
Jason: Really love this song.
Me: This songs takes on a whole new meaning and a whole new feel after watching Donnie Darko.