Torn Apart

The first step to getting the things you want out of life is this: Decide what you want
-Ben Stein-
But I don't know what I want. Must I know everything I want now?

The hardest thing to learn in life is which bridge to cross and which to burn.
-David Russell-

It's time to make yet another tough decision. Gosh I hate decision making, especially difficult ones. I am so indecisive. It's always been one of my weaknesses. It's not my choice, the god's made me this way. It's a trait of Librians. It's really not my fault! (blaming the heavens now...tsk tsk)

My parents are now pressuring me to go home. In light of the PR situation, their advice to me is to stop wasting precious time here in Melbourne and try Singapore instead. They're even willing to overwrite all the payments made towards the PR application and my rent, just so that I stop wasting time here.

But, Singapore. I know nobody there! I have no close friends there! I'll be all....alone. I'll be so depressed there I'll contribute to the suicidal rate of young people in Singapore. I want a career, I believe that's the important part of my life I should be focusing on right now, and I want a job here in Melbourne. But it's just not happening for me.
Now I'm stuck between the people I love here and a more promising job future in Singapore/Malaysia. I can't decide.
I've always been able to set my priorities straight and go through them as planned. This is so difficult though. I really don't want to leave my friends and Hann Meng here. At the same time, I don't want to waste anymore of my precious time hanging around here without a full time job.

I'm torn.

I should put career first. It's the right thing to do. It's the top priority on my priority list. It's just really hard though. I'm not sure I'm ready to just give up life here in Melbourne. After all it has been about 5 years. It'll be so different without my housemates and my FNL friends. You guys are like family to me already! I'll definately miss all of this if I go back.

What do I do?